StudioFortheLoveOfMusic: TheFireFight

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

TheFireFight

I feel really shocked/sad and at the same time, relieved today.

It really didnt turned out the way i thought it would. I thought about it for a week. I asked some of my friends. And i really tried to come out with a decision, this morning being it's peak of it. Many things went through my mind, i thought of the incident with edwin, and i was hoping that it wouldnt be like what happen then. I know, it was my mistake in that past incident, i was determined that i wouldnt let it happened again.

I didnt mean to shoot you or hurt you, like what i did to ed, i admit. My whole intention was to let u know how i felt about it, and then get on with it, being friends as usual. Me and yongsiang could achieve that, as well as some of my other friends. We give feedbacks about each other frankly at times, and get on with it, it just makes our friendship even much stronger. But perhaps such things need a high level of maturity and trust between 2 friends. A very solid friendship between 2 person. Maybe we didnt have it. And i opened up to u at a wrong time. This morning i really felt like saying it to you, because i felt that there was a tension growing between us, and i thought that, by doing so, we could build our friendship and understand each other more. It just wasnt the case.

Someone talked to me about it. Yea he's right. Maybe i was a little too insenstitive, and that i had no reason to do so except some obvious things that i had the reason to feel this way. But to think of what he said, he's right, "i mean he was just trying to get things which he likes too, and the fact that you introduced them to him should make you proud because youre the trendsetter"

Come to think of it now, i guess he's right. But what i'm trying to say is that, this morning, i had no intention of hurting, instead i was just trying to be frank so that we could understand each other more better. I hope our friendship can be salvaged.

On the otherhand. I'm really really really relieved today. I just got this sense of happiness and relief. Thanks alot dude. Really. I'm so glad we talked. And sorry about your tears. I feel so light now. Well, At least for us.

// posted by Ryan @ 10:35 PM